So, this is my first attempt at blogging. I have a lot on my mind most of the time and am never sure how to get it all out. Blogging seems like the path to take. I, like most women I know, have been having a bit of a problem for years. I first gained a little weight when I was 11. This was a problem for my mother who thought I was getting too fat and needed to be on a diet. At thirteen I put myself on a diet. From 123 to 113 in about a month. No one seemed to notice until I almost passed out in gym class. Thus began the cycle. I grew up with big women in my family. My Mom was overweight, her Mom, most of her sisters. In high school I walked to school, took gym class, weight training, I rode my bike. All of that barely kept me in a size 8. Next to my skinny friends I looked like a horse. Then, I got brilliant and married at 16. Not my shiniest moment but lets not focus on that. When I got pregnant five months later the trouble started. Now I was 17 and very round. I gained about 40 pounds with my oldest daughter. I lost it of course right after and I was so excited. Until it started coming back on. By the time she was one I weighed 9 pounds more than I had when I delivered her. Her Dad, my high school sweetheart, was of course repulsed by my weight and when he walked out one of his main reasons was my looks. I can't blame him I suppose, but it was sure hurtful at the time.................